A Part of My Soul Left the Day Your Heart Stopped Beating....

Sep 4, 2012

A Lot Has Happened....

Since my last blog, a lot has happened.....

To begin with,

Less than a year after my first miscarriage, I experienced another miscarriage.  Two weeks shy of my 1 year anniversary of my first.  This one was February 7th.  Different circumstances.  Unlike the last one, I did not bleed.  I went in to get my first ultrasound thinking all was well only to find out there was no heartbeat.

I was shocked to say the least.  We had this baby's chromosomes tested and it came back the extremely rare Trisomy 15.  I was told chances are I would NEVER have that chromosome abnormality ever again even if I miscarried 10 more times.  It was also not a genetic thing.  Just a random fluke of nature.
During the chromosome typing we also found out this baby was a precious little girl.  We gave her an identity - Gracie Elizabeth.

After that, I was done.  I was happy with just my Hallie.  Going through it once was hard, but twice was ever harder.  Granted, I feel I handled this second miscarriage better emotionally, it took it's toll on me mentally.  It had to be "my fault".

Fast forward 7 months to September 2011.  I found myself unexpectedly pregnant.  We were not trying.  The two we tried for we lost.  Hallie had been a surprise to us as well.  Turns out, we're not good at "planning"pregnancies.  They are better when they "happen" to us.

On June 1, 2012, I gave birth to my precious son, Gage Cooper.  He has been such a joy and blessing in our house and family. I can't imagine life without him now and to think, I had shut myself off to the thought of trying again.  I guess God had it in my life plan to prove me wrong and am I oh so every glad he did!
One of my close co-workers told me after my first miscarriage and reminded me after my second that there was a precious little soul just waiting for me.  He finally arrived and when I look at him and my daughter, my heart explodes with love, joy and happiness.